I know you’re trying so hard and believe me, you did your best.
I know it’s hard for you to keep trying, to improve yourself evenmore. Sometimes you feel lost about everything and don’t know what to do, and at the same times you feel like doing alright but most at the night you also feel like you’re not.
Fears will always makes you question yourself “Is this really getting better?” You’ve felt this way before, fighting with yourself everynight. Did you feel tired? When your head is too loud to think about what happened to you lately.
But who says you always have to be mighty? You can be tired, even through the days when it seems impossible to breathe, you’ll find a way to be breath the fresh air again. And I hope you continue to find the forgiveness to forgive yourself. I hope you continue to choose yourself again and again.
The pain you’ve incurred along the way will be overgrown by hundreds of flower arrange- ments. If it’s a happy meeting, the whole world hopes that your happiness never leads to forgetting, about this day, about all the buried memories and tears, and about the old version of you before you could stand tall.
You was never mean to hurt someone, you stand out to tried makes them save with your way. And some people will miss-understood your action, but that doesn’t mean you failed to keeping them save. And most of time, you did it. You make’s them feel save and sound.
One day, if you starts to questioning yourself “Did I do the right things?” Believe me, you did the right. When you get used to thinking about what is better for yourself and others, or when you’re willing to wait for your happiness once again, that’s the moment you grow, the moment your sincerity gets deeper. Appreciate every moment of you, every side of you, every happiness that you crave, every sadness that you frequently get, because it’ll bring you something someday when you’re willing to learn from it all.
It’s not easy to be where you are today, I’m sure there were so many hurt cause you frequently felt lost in the middle of the road, but because of that you could make it to where you are today. Maybe today seems still unclear, but in the end, all i hope it will lead you closer to where you are aiming for. Each step on this path brings you closer to peace, to a place where you can accept yout past, embrace your present, and look forward to your future with an open and a lighter heart.
Above all, forgiving yourself has required patience. Just as wounds take time to heal, so does the heart.
There are many things that you have gone through, maybe you still feel that you made a lot of mistakes or still feel scared when you do the same thing. But that’s life, there will always be fear of getting the freedom you want and cluelessness to seek the journey you need, it’s okay because eventually, you will overcome it.
